1 in 4 women and 1 in 6 men will know what it feels like to have their will taken...They will know what it feels like to feel powerless...to know fear.Some will not even tell anyone and will hold it in and the pain will extend further than they will ever know. Some will get help and learn the power of forgiveness but the memory will never be erased.This is the silent experience that effects everything and everyone that they have a relationship with...starting with the relationship they have with themselves.

I Know how it feels. Every loss  was a trigger to an experience that I can not forget even though I came to peace with it. I could talk it out and be desensitized to it but I lost all feelings as well because nothing can replace the loss of innocence. After a while you hate feeling powerless so you shut down and avoid feelings and only the dead do not feel. Dead is not living. 

Unfortunately we know all to well what it feels like to be a victim and to feel powerless. Being a victim sucks. This is why we harden our feelings and then lose out on so much good. 

I hated that feeIing of being broken. Even though I tried to hide my brokennes; I sure created a lot of chaos from where I was, even If I did not want to see it or recognize it. I was the only constant and changing all the players but the one I could was making me lonely and desperate. I created from where I was and I was not in a good place, and I knew I needed to get there.

I developed a tool to help get to a good place and bring me back to center and became a survivor. Giving them to the world so others can become whole too makes me a victor. I am a peaceful warrior fighting for free will and I have here all the tools and lessons I learned on the journey.

The truth is: even though we feel we are alone in our misery...we are not. We never have been.

I was there...I am here now.

Know that today you can start a journey back to you.